It’s Friday already and time to link up not only with your amazing hosts – me, Darlene – My First 5K and More, Michelle – Running With Attitude, and Jenn – Runs with Pugs, … but also
THIS WEEK WE HAVE THE BONUS LINK UP, MARCIA’S RUNFESSIONAL!
Time to cleanse our soles and runfess all that will lighten the load…
What on earth could I have to runfess about? After all, I’m not running. And that is a runfession in and of itself.
Let me just explain.
I don’t need to run right now
Weird right. After all that – the foot surgeries, the planning on how to make the comeback, the need to have my identity back. I just haven’t really managed to get started again.
I want to feel like it’s time
Honestly, I feel like it will happen again when it happens. Putting the pressure on myself to do it is actually creating a bit of stress in my nervous system. And right now the most important thing I can do is fix my nervous system. And find peace with myself exactly as I am.
I’m walking every day
So I’m moving. And most of my walks are with real intent. Sure, some are purely practical and that is ok too. But I am enjoying the fact that I can walk without that horrible pain in my feet that I once had. Am I a little on edge that this pain might come back? Maybe a smidge. So let’s run when I am not worried about it. Makes sense right?
As much as I love running…
There is a real freedom of not *having* to put on my kicks and go for a run. Not *having* to prove to myself that I still can. I want to feel the joy and pleasure again in running and I feel like if I go with my gut then I will achieve that!
Running does NOT define me
Crazy concept right? After all, I am a runner. I am just not running right now. After years of pushing through pain, and ending up with two needed surgeries, I have really set my physical and mental health out of whack. I am more than running. And I will run again, this is just the phase where I start from the here and now and not from the past. I think that’s what has been the hardest thing, the last several years; constantly trying and being disappointed that I am not the runner I used to be. When I start again it will be from NOW not from then.
We all deal with injury, pain, mental challenges differently. This is my path. I embrace where I’m at right now and truly look forward to the running future.
“My next run begins in the present. Everything before it can stay behind.” – me.
Here are the guidelines:
- Your link should center around some kind of fitness (exercise, wellness, mental health, nutrition… the possibilities are endless!)
- Please link back to your hosts! It’s the right thing to do!
- Share the link-up love by visiting and commenting on your hosts and at least two other Fit Five Friday bloggers!
- Feel free to share about Fit Five Friday on your social media! Tag #FitFiveFriday to get the word out!
And check out the other blog posts on Marcia’s Runfessional!
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