What to do when you are not dieting

I’m officially not dieting, though my brain is still in diet mentality. That’s years and years of conditioning. Like growing up Catholic and then giving it up, the rituals stay with you regardless of whether you want them there or not.

So I’m not dieting. What do I eat if I’m not dieting?

I feel like I’m eating a lot of food sometimes. I guess in some cases it’s ok, because we’re talking about a lot of fruit and vegetables for the most part. Yesterday I had:

Two Knackebrood crackers with filet americain
A Half a sandwich with smoked beef and mustard
A Half a sandwich with chicken and mustard
A Triple Grande One Pump Sugar Free Vanilla Non-Fat Latte
Two more Swedish crackers with 30g goats cheese and 40 g avocado
A Venti Herbal Tea
100g of rice, three tomatoes, oil, vinegar, shallot, cucumber, tuna
A Double Espresso
Steamed beans, sun-dried tomato,50g lean bacon, bit of onion and garlic, oil, vinegar, Italian cheese
A mini Nuts Bar
A Double Tall Non-Fat Latte
175g non-fat yoghurt with strawberries, blueberries, and one mandarin and about one Tbsp All-Bran
The other two half sandwiches from above
A grilled cheese sandwich with mayo and two slices of turkey salami
A couple of glugs of Diet Cassis soda (maybe one glass in total)

Yesterday I was hungry all day, but I’m certain it was lack of sleep that did it. I woke up at 3.30am and could not go back to sleep. I was definitely a wreck by the time I left work. I had the mini Nuts around 3pm, which makes sense – nearly 12 hours after I’d been awake and I was probably feeling like I needed sugar so I succumbed to my Nemesis, the Candy Jar (just one though, in fact, never even thought about it again after I’d had the one – which is a victory in my book!)

Today I am not as prepared food wise as I was yesterday, meaning, I have snacks but no lunch . They key here will be to just choose wisely and not overdo. What I have had or have with me are:

Two double espressos (what can I say? I love my coffee)
1 egg, 3 egg whites, mushrooms, spinach, olive oil, garlic, Italian Cheese (yummy breakfast)
Apple, Banana, Kiwi
Strawberries, blueberries, one mandarin (need to buy yoghurt)
Swedish Crackers
Goats Cheese and Avocado
Approx 100g cottage cheese, five green olives

I’ll need to get lunch at work – could be a sandwich or a salad, just depends on what’s available and what I’m feeling like. Hubs already has decided to make hamburgers for dinner (we do them ourselves from very lean beef, usually a ciabatta, cheese, sautéed onions and mushrooms).

Did check the scale this morning: Holiday gain was 900g, so far after a couple days back home, down 700g. Now I just need to get my running groove back. I have a 12K race next Sunday (*gulp*) and of course the Half-Marathon at the end-ish of April that I’m now officially totally unprepared for. Ah well, I’m sure I’ll get through it all.

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