Mish asked me if I was happy with myself in my Trigger Unhappy post.
I just want to say, yes, I am happy. Or at least I am a lot happier than I was a few years ago.
There are things in my life that I wish were different, but I am learning to accept. I made some mistakes in my past that have effect on my life now and accepting those things makes life a lot easier.
But happiness – it’s hard to define really. What puts a smile on my face and in my heart though is what I consider happiness.
My husband rocks. I mean, like totally and completely. And if it weren’t for him, his support and his sticking by me throughout a whole lotta bullshit, I’m not sure what life would be like right now.
I have two stepkids that give me an opportunity to be a parent, even if only every other weekend. They rock and I love them and moreover they think I’m pretty cool too.
I recently got my social life started again. It makes me happy to be able to interact with cool people, do fun things, have others to laugh with and experience things with besides my husband and my stepkids.
There are things I would love to change. I love the company I work for. 100%. I have really great colleagues, the ones that really matter to me. I get opportunities to do very fun and exciting (to me) stuff and I love that. My extra-work that I get to do is what keeps me going (that and my caffeine addiction). But I do not want to do what I’m doing forever. I am delving into what it is that I really want to do when I grow up.
There’s my financial situation that I’d love to change but honestly, it’s really not going to unless I hit the jackpot, which also isn’t going to happen because I refuse to play the lottery anymore. So, that’s on the list of things to accept.
So it’s down to my body. No I’m not happy with that. However, again, it goes back to acceptance. Accepting what I have here and now and working towards a healthier goal is what I would like to focus on. When I accept me NOW I know I can already achieve the peace and happiness I deserve.