OK. Seriously?

Before I do a proper update for this week… I just want to say…


It wasn’t a perfect week, but 5/7 days completely on, working out like crazy, making sure I did everything right and the scale is staying pretty much the same???  In fact, I gained 200 grams this week???

5/7 days tracking, exercise, fruits, veg, water, blah blah blah.  I’m growing tired of this whole thing.

So, basically I’m not allowed to go out and have fun if it involves food and drink, ever, if I want to lose weight?

I’ve been in the 81 – 82 KG range since beginning of December. 

I KNOW.  It’s good.  I’ve still lost weight.  I’m getting fit.  I took my measurements, yes. I’m healthier now, yes.  It’s not a race, I know.  It’s not about WHEN I reach my number goal is that I actually reach it. 

I gained 200 grams this week.  Next week I’m in England.  I’ll have a gain next week too.  Oh sure I can be “careful” and still track everything and stay active blahblahblah, I don’t have to have a gain, but hello.  I am not stupid.  I have never gone to England for a few days and not gained weight.  Oh, I know, I’ll just drink water and eat salads while I’m there.  That should be fun.

I KNOW that “fun” doesn’t have to mean food and drink but what do I do when good food and drink is something I enjoy???  I’m meeting up with an old high school friend for dinner, meeting people for pre-concert drinks – everything revolves around food and drink! 

I KNOW I’m just ranting and spewing and raving and I’m going to get over this.  But right now I’m pissed off and frustrated.  Right now I just wonder WHY I bother when it seems I’m MEANT to be a Fat Girl the rest of my life!!!

9 thoughts on “OK. Seriously?

  1. Oh love! I so understand how you feel. I get frustrated like that too.

    If you can’t find anything else positive here, at least realize this: you are in touch with how you feel and you’re talking it out. That’s a big deal! I am very proud of you, not just for your weight loss but for putting your feelings out there.

    It can be so hard to socialize and party when you’re trying to eat well and take care of yourself. Maybe try to find healthier options that don’t make you feel deprived? I know for me that if I try to do the salads and water thing while everyone else is having cocktails and rich food, I go bananas and end up bingeing in private later. So what can you do? Focus on your portions. A bite of cake is not going to kill you, nor is a glass of wine. Get your activity in. Most importantly? Enjoy your trip, enjoy your friends. Enjoy your life!

    You can do it! I know you can!

    1. aw, thank you Jenny!

      I hate sounding like a whiney bitch, I really do. I also know it’s not the end of the world if I maintain for a while, especially if I am enjoying my life. Losing weight is such a complex thing and unless you are away at a fat farm for the rest of your life, there is no way one can avoid these kinds of bumps in the road (at least not if you are a social creature! OK for a hermit!).

      Great advise though, thanks very much. I will just focus on my portions and keep up the physical stuff. I will get there eventually!!

      Thank you so very much!

  2. I so know what you mean and I know you know all the same old schpiel about this, so I’m not going to give you that…

    Will just say that it’s what you do when you gain 200 grams or 2 kilograms or whatever, that makes you different from the much, much larger percentage of people who will lose weight only to gain it all back and then some. Go and have fun in England and just don’t worry about it too much. It will all work out just fine.

  3. It may be that you are gaining muscle while losing fat, so don’t be discouraged. Also, if you are trying to lose the last stubborn 10 lbs, they will not want to come off. Keep at it, and remember any week that you dont GAIN is a good week :-)

    1. hey Carol – I did think about that and the fact that I may be losing inches (well centimeters) too. So I did my measurements and I lost 2 cm on my waist and 4 on my hips from the last time I measured. That is something to be proud of for sure. And I’m actually trying to lose the “last” 12 KG (or about 25 ish pounds). My husband said the same thing but unfortunately I’m at that “I’ve just made it past the halfway mark”.

      With the muscle though, you are so right and I will focus on that too – my arms are looking more and more buff and my legs feel pretty strong too from the running :)

  4. PS: if you did gain a little weight, it might be muscle. how do your clothes fit? That’s a better judge of things than the number on the scale.

    1. ah, true! clothes are fitting better! I also bought some new workout tops and they are almost too big! I should get out of the mindset that I’m not an XL anymore!

  5. Pinky, are you in my brain? That’s what it looks like inside my brain! I know your pain but your post seriously made me laugh so hard. I can just see you throwing your arms around and stomping your feet. It totally sucks and is SO NOT FAIR! I completely and utterly agree.

    I was watching an old video by faintstarlite and she mentioned that at one point she had a FOUR week period where she was just stuck. She was so calm about it even though she mentioned she almost quit at that point. It made me think..OH, hmm…she reacted quite calmly, that’s so interesting. Me, not so much.

    I suppose that out of the whole of the year, a couple of weeks don’t matter. You’re doing great, I know you know that. I look at your pictures and I can’t believe how small and beautiful you are. Just get mad at the scale and get even and go have fun on vacation and then show that scale who’s boss. Who’s the boss? You’re the boss. You rock!

  6. wow! thank you so much! hahaha! that’s pretty much what I was doing this morning being the drama queen that I am. I have been thinking about it all day and I keep reminding myself of ALL the things I have accomplished, even in just the last half year. It’s only a few weeks out of what, pretty much the rest of my life! I just gotta hang in and hang on and not quit. And I’m definitely not quitting. I am just going to carry on and let go a bit on the numbers right now.

    Besides, I just got into my Depeche Mode concert tee I bought in June. It FITS! Screw the scale!

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