Off the Rails?

More like not even on that train and instead on a boat to the river Denial.

OK. Maybe it’s not that bad. The first week of ProPoints was good and I managed a decent loss of 500gr. I was all ready for December, even made up a new worksheet (I like excel sheets and making graphs and analysing things) and then, I hurt my back. If you haven’t already read this post you could and then you would know why I’m not currently following my WW program at the moment.

It’s not really that I don’t want to… the overwhelming feelings of patheticness think “why bother?”  I have not been mobile enough to really take care of myself in this way.  Well, that’s my excuse anyway.  How hard can it be to eat fruit and measure out my food still.  Apparently Feeling-Sorry-For-Herself-Pinky found it very hard.  It was much easier to eat chocolate.  The chocolate was reachable, the apples are on the bottom shelf.

And still, after several days of this, in fact almost a week, I weighed in this morning on my home scale to 81.7KG.  The Universe has been kind to me but I also see it as a warning.  “Get your shit together or it’s about to go the other direction”

You know, it’s SO FREAKING EASY to give up or slowly go down that slippery slope when things aren’t going the way you want them to be.  I don’t want to be that person.  YES, I am in pain ALL THE TIME right now, but I don’t want to be that person who’s life is ruled by physical challenges.  Loads of people have other challenges and they are not whinging about it or crying on the couch.  That’s why this morning, as soon as I was able to snap out of it, I made the decision:

1) I am going to eat WELL today and track.

2) I am going out for a walk today, no matter what the weather.

My doctor said I can lightly exercise and that’s what I’m going to do.  I may not sit well, but at least I’m going to get out there and do something to relieve the pain.  Even if temporarily.  Maybe it will help.  Maybe, it will actually cause the pain to GO AWAY.