It’s that time of week again! Hopefully you’ve been enjoying this new link up with your FIVE amazing hosts – me, My First 5K and More, Running With Attitude, Runs with Pugs, Zenaida ! Feel free to join in on the fun!
This week we have the bonus link up, Marcia’s Runfessional!
Every month Marcia opens the runfessional – a place to let it all out and cleanse your soles; if you are needing to release some sweaty secrets or just want to get things off your chest, here’s the place to do it!
This week I have only TWO Runfessions I need to get off my chest…
Running is half “meh” and half fun
To be honest, my knee is still not 100% and I guess maybe all the walking hasn’t really helped… but I runfess that I’m too stubborn to let go of the Illinois Marathon Criss-Cross Virtual Challenge. I’m so close to finishing and by dog I’m going to earn the swag and medal I’ve already received.
Making sure I’m walking, running two times a week, and cross-training, PLUS working, I am not really enjoying the mid-week run as much as I would like. Maybe it’s something to do with the weather, which has been kind of poop (as you know). But also, the whole knee thing. I’m just over it. I also have no races in my future and it seems a little bit like parkrun won’t even be starting until maybe August.
I suppose we all go through “meh” running periods?
But maybe the biggest reason?
To be totally honest and transparent, I runfess that in just one week I will have abdominoplasty.
While I realise I owe it to no one but myself to justify my decision I want to be clear with everyone that:
- This is not an easy decision to make
- This is not the easy way out
- There should not be any shame in taking a different road than the one you’ve travelled for so long
There is unfortunately still so much negativity about plastic surgery but what my research has led me to is that this can be a positive life-changing thing. For me, that’s what this is all about.
I’m not a mom, which means my body was not “ruined” by having children. (which, sidenote: I also can’t stand the negative messaging about something that is supposed to be a miraculous and wonderful thing), however, I can tell you that this has been an issue for me for a long time. My weight started to become an issue when I was about 19 (and I actually thought it was a problem earlier than that, but that’s another post) and I was never really this fit until I started this journey “for the last time” in 2009. This a combination of non-existent fitness as a kid, scoliosis, bad posture, never working on my core, later weight gain, and yo-yo dieting that has created something I can not fix.
After 12 long years of doing a multitude of things for my health and wellness, I simply cannot solve my problem by myself. Not through diet or exercise. Which I have been, for all intents and purposes, been consistent with since 2009.
I have spent a fortune on gym memberships, trainers, training programs, nutritionists, coaches, coolsculpting and other gimmicky things that sometimes work. I have tried all kinds of diets, macros, no gluten, all gluten, all protein, paleo, no night shades, weight watchers; I could go on! I cannot solve this problem by myself. Y’all know how active I am. OK maybe I’m not running as much as I was but this is not “giving up” after just a few tries.
I’m ready to take a different path. And that path is surgery.
The Good News?
You don’t have to agree with it! But I sure hope you’ll respect my decision. It’s been a couple of years of research and educating myself on what was possible. These days a tummy tuck is not only for atheistic purposes, and that is definitely the lowest reason on my list (but I would be lying if I didn’t acknowledge it is for sure a bonus)! Remember me telling you about all the times I went to Pilates and just couldn’t feel anything? My core is so weak and that has effect on my back which has effect on how I train, which basically keeps me continually going around in circles.
And I’ll tell you something else that’s a lovely TMI tidbit, fitness with a weak core and a belly that is constantly moving around with loose skin from weight loss, well, it causes incontinence. Let’s just say I am really sick of that. Fixing my core in this way, removing excess skin and a bit of fat can fix this problem. I’m super down with that.
That’s kind of enough of a Runfessional, don’t you think?
While I have no issue talking about it and putting it here in the blogosphere, I’m not putting it all over social media at the moment. After the operation I’ll be sure to update.
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